#First Assignment :
"Write down top 5 things in your life that you have simply failed to fully and completely admit or acknowledge to yourself"
1. Failure in keeping promise
"I made a promise to myself in the name of Allah. It’s about a silly thing that I should leave behind a long time ago. I promise not to do that anymore, but I failed. I had tried but it only worked for 8 months long. I’m still trying until now to fulfill that promise."
2. Failure in several university admission tests
"5 years ago I failed in 4 university admission test. In those 4 test, Instead of choosing civil engineering as my first option, I chose medical faculty or electrical engineering. My motive was to make my older sister acknowledge me as a smart person. i wanted to show her that I was better than her. I learned that it was a meaningless thing, because we were totally different and can’t be compared to each other. I admit that I was too arrogant, I was not concern about my goal, and I was not following my heart. Then, I chose civil engineering on my 5th attempt and I succeed. "
3. failure in Leading First Project in HMS (civil engineering student community)
" I was chosen to be the leader of HMS election committee. My failure was I failed to manage the budget, i failed to make the election process clear enough, and I failed on the evaluation or obviously i didn’t make it. The stress of balancing academic and non academic was too hard for me to handle. I ran from my problem by doing the things that I shouldn’t do like smoking. Those only make my problem even bigger. I couldn’t handle it anymore so in the end I didn’t make evaluation. Some people saw me as a not responsible person. Oke I accept that, I know it was my consequences. I learned that i have to be open minded , means that I have to accept the criticism from another person."
4. Failure in “high compressive strength concrete competition”
(to be continued)
5. Failure in keeping relationship with my girlfriend.
(to be continued)
I just want to say sorry for what I’ve done to you…
Sorry for the inconvenience that I made…
Sorry for my impatience…
Sorry for letting you go easily…
Sorry for (maybe) a little bit pushing you…
Sorry for not making you feel special…
I do never lie about my feelings to you. . .
I do enjoy hanging out with you…
I do enjoy chatting with you, it was so relaxing…
I’d really love to meet niece, she is so cute :3
Thanks for become one of my life memories that I called “wonderful July”
Would you tell me who is the lucky guy? by yourself of course
I’m not gonna hate neither you nor him,
Feeling pain in “here”, is one of the consequences, I’ve matured enough to accept it whole-heartedly,
But If you don’t want to, just don’t. I’m done for asking you too much
I hope you’re happy :D
Sincerely written for you